The protagonist in my case is named Auden. The book is written in her perspective.
In physical description she’s:
- "She had black hair and fair skin. Taller than you, but kind of bony." Page 53
- Her coal black hair is long and inherited from her mother. -'tall and curvy with very long jet-black hair....' p3 (description of her mother)
Her personality in the beginning of the book was:
Anti-Social-p16 0-"I mean, I did all the academic stuff. But I never had that many friends. So there's a lot I don't know."
"I guess" I said, "that I missed a lot in high school. Like, socially."- Page 159
Missed out on a lot of things, different lifestyle-
'There was not a lot of time for playing or toys, although I never wanted for books, which were always in ample supply. Because of this upbringing, I had kind of a hard time relating to other kids my age. I didn't understand their craziness, the rambunctious way they tossed around couch cushions, say, or rode their bikes wildly around culs-de-sac.' Page 8
"I guess" I said, "that I missed a lot in high school. Like, socially."- Page 159
Over Achiever-p7 to p8—‘obsessive about school and grades…the one thing that got my parents attention’ ‘succeeding was a habit too ingrained to break’ ‘school was my solace, and studying let me escape, allowing me to live a thousand vicarious lives.-p9
Hypocritical—p17- “Since I couldn’t say what I really felt, which was that you had to be a pretty serious narcissist to give a picture as a gift, I told her, “It’s beautiful.”
And in many ways, just like her mother, though this is a temporary phase until she finds herself.
Never-changing Qualities:
Insomniac—p5—“The insomnia started when my parents’ marriage began to fall apart three years earlier.” –p10-‘Ray’s Diner’ ‘...pulled in, went inside, and ordered a cup of coffee and some apple pie. I stayed until sunrise.’ ‘Became a regular’.
Book Smart-page 159- "I'm book-smart," I said. "Not street-smart."
Mature—“Auden’s very mature for her age.” –p8
Believes in change for the better- p14- “Well, that was a long time ago. Maybe he’s changed.” “You never know, Maybe Hollis has changed and they’ll get engaged.”- p20
- Defensive about people that she cares about- "I'm just saying," I said. "Heidi's not what she appears."
Examples of this:
On pages 70- 76, Auden offers and receives a job in managing her step-mothers checkbooks for her store: 'Clementine's'.
She offers and usually babysits and takes care of her stepsister Thisbe. An example is on Page 63 when her Dad struggles with the new baby Thisbe. 'Thisbe woke up and started fussing...it began to escalate. By the time the hostess arrived and began to grab menus for us, she was pretty much screaming. "I'll take her," 'I said, grabbing the stroller from him and backing it up to the door.'
Auden is a complex character but through different problems, each solution usually makes her a better person. Her life is changing, and she is finding herself in it all. Its interesting to figure out Auden and see how she functions and all the personalities she posseses are different and can be very amusing. Its through these that Sarah Dessen keeps us-(well me); reading the book.